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Dear Ralfee:
 I’m
B. I was born January 19, 1961, at 10:30 am in Whittier, California. Would
like to know why I’m having the worst luck of my life.
Please
help, B.
Dear
B.,
I'm
not quite sure what you mean by the "worst luck of your life.” Your
Sun in Capricorn, along with a Saturn-Jupiter conjunction also in Capricorn,
indicates a strong capacity to endure difficulty. So whatever is happening,
it must be exceptionally challenging.
At
the moment, you're under a lot of astro-stress. Several strong planetary
influences are converging in your life, and when this happens, it's easy
to get confused and feel discouraged. But not all of these transits are
bad. Indeed, there's also plenty of planetary support for creating positive
solutions to whatever isn't working.
Your
birth chart contains a Moon-Pluto opposition. The Moon is our emotional
body. It's reactive. Intuitive. And it's all about feelings. The Moon
also represents the mother. Your Moon is in Pisces, making you sympathetic,
intuitive and highly sensitive. What's more, a Pisces Moon is also empathic,
making it easy to lose yourself and merge with another. Creating strong
boundaries is a life-long theme. As a child, this talent for merging was
instinctual. You felt your mother's needs, were highly susceptible to
her moods and had a deeper than average need to stay connected to her.
Your natal Pluto opposes that Pisces Moon. Pluto is all about power and
control. Oppositions signal tension. And all of this coalesces into a
feeling that mom was always out of reach. She wasn't able to completely
satisfy your need for safety, security and connection.
I
keep repeating the word "need" because transiting Pluto has
been triggering these early childhood issues for the last several years.
In December of 1997, Pluto stared squaring itself. Then, in December of
1998, Pluto also started squaring your Moon. This difficult transit continues
until October of 2000, and may well be the reason you feel you're experiencing
the "worst luck of your life.” But these Pluto transits aren't about
luck. They are about facing those old, unconscious needs, and learning
to feel safe and secure from the inside out.
Pluto
square Pluto raises issues of personal power. It functions like a heat-seeking
missile, exposing all the places we feel powerless. Often, when we're
unaware of these holes in our confidence, Pluto gets our attention through
external events.
Your
natal Pluto is in your Sixth House, which means you're probably facing
employment problems or health issues. And because transiting Pluto is
in your Eighth House, you may also have hit hard financial times.
Pluto
square the Moon always raises relationship issues, and, again, because
the Moon rules your Fourth House, this transit might mean trouble at home.
But
these difficulties are also about unresolved feelings of safety and security.
If you expand your consciousness about how those early imprints motivate
your adult choices, Pluto will become a friend instead of an enemy.
For
example, if your mother was always in control when you were young, you
may insist on being in control as an adult. Or, the opposite could be
true. You may find yourself in relationships where you never experience
your authority. When Pluto squares the Moon, it levels the playing field.
Those you've placed above you, fall from grace. Those you've put below,
rise in stature. Humility and patience are essential in successfully handling
these role reversals.
What's
more, if you've relied on a big job title and equally big salary to demonstrate
your power, Pluto is apt to pull the rug out from under and land you on
the unemployment line. This is not because you're being punished, but
because some place, deep within, that job description and fat paycheck
cover a deep sense of worthlessness. And Pluto is pushing you to discover
your ultimate value—something that can't be measured in material terms.
Resisting
Pluto's invitation to greater emotional authenticity only makes matters
worse. Instead of leaving a bad relationship, you get left. If you stop
struggling, Pluto will assist you in resurrecting your life on the basis
of greater meaning. But again, you must be willing to change. And trust.
You
can start the positive Pluto process by asking really big questions. What
do you really value? Does your job, with all its money, make you miserable?
Are you afraid of what others will think if you opt for a simpler life
style? Do you put success before family? Are you in a marriage that looks
good but doesn't make you happy?
Significantly,
transiting Pluto is currently trining your Ascendant, providing huge support
for creating a new persona and reinventing your sense of self.
What's
more, you've just started a new twenty-year cycle of good fortune, with
the possibilities of increased success and recognition. The recent Saturn-Jupiter
conjunction trined both your Saturn and Jupiter. This trine
actually indicates good luck and offers positive support for creating
a worthwhile and personally-satisfying career.
But
to enjoy the benefits of these trines, you need an open attitude. Take
a moment. Sit quietly. And ask your spirit what it's been trying to learn
from the "worst luck of your life.” You may find there is much to be mined
from your current circumstances. Remember the first rule of magic: Whatever
we focus our attention on becomes our reality. Start viewing these bad
times with a different perspective and you'll start to move out of despair
and into hope. Just the willingness to change can trigger a transformational
process that allows us to turn the deepest sorrow into the gold of wisdom.
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