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Woman to Woman StarIQ.com Your Chart Data
Name: Ellen Ames
Sun in Aquarius, at 03° 38', in the eleventh
house, Air, Fixed.
Woman to Woman An Astrological Portrait Prepared for Ellen Ames Your astrological chart provides an amazing guidepost to the most important aspect of your life: an understanding of yourself. As a woman today, you face the challenge of discovering yourself within the context of many life experiences. You wear a variety of faces and play many roles, experiences which can both enhance and complicate your feeling of satisfaction with yourself and your life. Your astrological chart provides indicators which help to define who you are, strengthening an understanding of your needs on every level. Each chart is different in its make-up, and the myriad combinations of influences help to underscore the importance of each person as an individual. One thing you must remember when working with astrology: it is through your free will that you make choices. Your "chart" does not make you do anything! We are finally acknowledging and realizing within today's world, that men and women experience life differently. The workings of your psyche, symbolized by your astrological chart, are likely to be experienced quite differently through your filter as a woman than they would be if you were born male. This report is designed for you, a woman in a world of change, a woman seeking to become whole. Your natal, or birth, chart is made up of several factors. Drawn upon a circular wheel, your natal chart shows the positions of the planets relative to your place, date and time of birth. Everything is indicated symbolically, with each symbol having specific meanings. The planets, Sun and Moon are placed around the circle, and each is placed within a particular degree of a sign of the zodiac. The planets, Sun and Moon are energy bodies, and the astrological signs indicate how these energies work. Just as you are a complex of feelings, needs, drives and desires - your natal chart maps these qualities. You will also notice that the planetary symbols fall within particular segments of the circle. These segments, called "Houses", indicate the specific environments and relationships which are part of your life. You may find, upon reading your report, that there are a few contradictions. For example, one factor may indicate independence, while another shows strong dependency. It is not unusual to experience contradictions within yourself, and that is just what your chart illustrates about you! But when you reflect upon these qualities within the context in which they are explained, you may discover some self-illuminating facts about yourself. Self-understanding has a marvelous way of emphasizing your personal power! An Overall Glimpse at Your Astrological Chart The astrological signs are defined by one of four elements: fire, earth, air or water. The fire and air elements have a yang (masculine polarity) quality, and tend to be more outgoing and assertive in their nature, whereas the earth and water elements have a yin (feminine polarity) quality, and are more receptive by nature. The elemental balance in your chart is determined by the amount of energy within each elemental sign. The factors added together to find this balance of energy include the Sun, Moon, planets and the angles of the Ascendant and Midheaven. Your chart shows a strong predominance of air energy, indicating that you function very easily on the mental plane. Living in the world of ideas, you may also gain strength when you are connected to others - at least mentally. Your social calendar is important, not because it's frivolous, but because you need to make contact. Most comfortable with others who are intelligent or interesting, you may be a natural in public relations. It's easy for you to stay in your head, which can be wonderful if you're involved in a mental project or study. But if you're stuck worrying, you may find it difficult to break the habit. The elemental balance in your astrological chart shows that water is a weak factor. Emotional situations can be rather uncomfortable for you, although you may be somewhat fascinated by others who display their feelings readily. The world of your inner self, your emotional self, can seem tremendously difficult for you at times, and if you're overwhelmed by emotion, you may find yourself shutting down in order to keep your feelings under control in order to avoid pain. Your best therapy is to deal with your feelings, and to acknowledge them. And you may also need to be more attentive to the feelings of others, or you could be accused of being cold or uncaring. Self-sufficiency is one thing, but total distance can be quite lonely. Stimulate your emotional nature in a positive sense by getting into the water element and enjoying it. Swim, take long soaking baths, or let yourself walk outside in the rain on a warm day. And if you're really feeling brave, rent a tear-jerker movie, make a cup of tea, grab your hankies and close the door. Another aspect of your basic nature is determined by the balance of the modes in your chart. The modes are also defined by sign, which are grouped together as either cardinal, fixed or mutable. Your strongest mode is Cardinal, indicating that your basic approach to life is one of getting things started. You're an initiator, and are happiest when you're beginning something new. This factor sometimes indicates an enhanced sense of courage and enthusiasm. A strong ability to get things going, maintain your inspiration, carry through with your commitments and complete projects. Your ability to deal with different styles and human diversity enhances your spirit of cooperation, and makes you a good choice for leadership positions. However, you also have adequate amounts of mutable energy, which is expressed through your ability to remain flexible when necessary. Your weakest link is in fixity, which indicates that you sometimes fail to stay with a person, project or situation until you've completed your obligation or task. When you view your chart as a whole, you'll notice that there is an emphasis of planets on the top half of the chart. This hemisphere strength indicates that you are driven by a need for recognition, and that you can be quite comfortable in the public eye. Career may have a high priority for you, and if you are not employed outside the home, you may be quite busy in community or civic affairs. You are drawn by the world, and your need for validation is most easily satisfied when your achievements are acknowledged and respected in some way. You may be quite influential in the lives of others, and have strong potential as a leader, teacher or mentor. However, you also need to remember that you must allow some "down" time, and that your home and family may provide an important security base. You may also be concerned with the areas in your chart which appear to be empty. Never fear, these houses are not really vacant! You are just not placing as much emphasis in these relationships or environments, or you may be satisfying these needs through other dimensions of your life. Projection of Your Real Self Sometimes showing the world who you really are is not easy, and sometimes the world may not respond as you had hoped! It's helpful to take a look at the differences and similarities between the attitudes, impressions and images you project and the person who resides at the core of your being. With your Sun in Aquarius you are a woman whose spirit forges into the realm of the unusual. As an individual you are unique, and you may pride yourself on the things that make you different from everyone else. But you also have a strong desire to connect to those who are like minded, and may count your friends as your most significant blessings. Since your Sun speaks of "who you think you are," you need to realize that your powerful mind, which can be strongly focused, is your link to your future, and that you are the creator of that future. Your Ascendant is the face you present to the world, and shows how others see you. Your Ascendant, or rising sign, is Aries. You may give the appearance of assertive independence, and can be quite competitive when necessary. Your attitude toward life is generally adventurous, and you may love to take on challenges. Although you may not realize it sometimes, you can be abrasive, even though you may have simply been blazing the trail along the path toward reaching your destination. Mars, the planetary energy associated with your rising sign, is in Sagittarius in your chart. You may have a high level of athleticism, and are likely to feel better if you adopt an active lifestyle. Your sometimes sassy attitude can be quite fascinating. Your Moon is in opposition to your Ascendant, which can indicate that you have conflicts between what you need for yourself and what others demand or need from you. You may also place too much emphasis on living your life based upon taking care of others, and may feel emotionally drained as a result. Part of the undercurrent of this energy comes from wanting to be connected or needing a partner. This is perfectly okay as long as you create relationships in which your needs and desires count, too. But watch for a tendency for things to get one-sided, and remember to give yourself ample opportunities to fulfill your own needs. With your Sun in sextile aspect to your Ascendant, you can be quite effective in meeting life on your own terms. Positions of respect and authority feel natural to you, and you can be an excellent leader. Applying your natural talents and abilities is easy for you, so easy, in fact, that you may not take full advantage of your personal resources. With Venus in square aspect to your Ascendant you may continually underestimate your worth or value as a person. You may have fallen victim to the idea that your appearance is the only key to your beauty and, whether or not you think you are physically attractive, may never be quite satisfied with the way you look. On a deeper level, you may be dealing with a sense of inadequacy which may stem from a feeling that you are not lovable. Being lovable begins with the way you feel about yourself, and by becoming more accepting and loving toward yourself, you nurture the true essence of love - which resides at the core of your inner self. You may also struggle with the experience of putting yourself at risk or putting forth effort in order to achieve the realization of your desires. You may find that you actually appreciate something more if you attain it through your own efforts than if it were simply given to you. With Saturn in sextile aspect to your Ascendant you can project a strong no-nonsense attitude and may be the first person who comes to mind when someone is searching for a responsible manager or leader. Your practicality may even be expressed in the way you dress, although you're probably most comfortable in conservative attire. You appreciate order and consistency, and function best when you have your priorities clearly outlined and when your time is reasonable structured. But expecting everyone else to adhere to your standards or schedule may be asking a lot, so try to apply your sense of realism to your assessment of other people too. Neptune's energy in trine aspect to your Ascendant adds an imaginative and mystical quality to your personality. Your artistic nature can be expressed in many ways, and you may become quite adept in developing your talents and sensibilities. Psychic abilities often accompany this placement. You may have a special sensitivity to your environment. You'll also find that you're more comfortable in surroundings which are serene, and may enjoy being surrounded by beautiful music. Pluto in opposition to your Ascendant indicates a real potential for power struggles in relationships. You may not trust the entire process of marriage, especially if it seems to mean that your husband gets the power and you get the laundry - or, in today's world, that you get to work and do the chores while your partner plays golf on the weekends. But you can also be the one who's guilty of wrongfully using your own power, so do be honest before you play the blame game. In most cases, this aspect symbolizes an intense desire to break away from your old life and establish a new order. This can be done without bloodshed and heartache, but only if you're dealing with the issues in a way which allows you to become whole. There are many different facets of the Moon in your chart. But when it comes to your identity, your Moon speaks volumes about who you are at the deepest level: the soul of your being. Your Libra Moon is the part of you which feels most alive when you share those special moments in your life with a partner or companion. Somehow, life is better when you have a true, balanced, working partnership. But getting to that point can be a bumpy road. This drive actually stems from the duality which exists within yourself. Your inner self needs as much recognition and support as the part of you which exists in and is validated by the outside world. Herein lies your true partnership. And from this point, a relationship with someone else can become a reasonable reality. Understanding Your Inner Feminine Self Although the temptation is to think that just because you are a woman you are in touch with your inner feminine self, this is a much more complicated task than it appears to be! First of all, the model for the true power of femininity has been lost over recent history and is now becoming re-energized. Recovering this power is a personal task for each woman, and learning to use feminine power constructively on a collective level is another challenge for today's woman. This process is the cradle of self-healing, and provides the essence of your personal security. The primary energies associated with your inner feminine self are the Moon and Venus, but Neptune and Pluto are also significant in your experience and expression of this part of your psyche. The Moon is the energy which filters through your subconscious self, and tells the story of your connection to the part of you which provides nurturing, support, care and comfort. The person who projects the model for your Moon energy is your mother, and you see her through the lens of your own emotional matrix, signified by the Moon. As you mature, you learn to send this energy into the world, but to be truly effective, you must first own this energy and know how to use it to care for yourself! Your Libra Moon shapes your attitudes of femininity in a very special sense: for you, being a woman is a beautiful experience. You may love the essence of feminine grace, charm and delicate beauty, and your ability to radiate those qualities can be easily developed. Your ideals are quite high, though, and you may have a sense of impatience with yourself when you fail to meet your own ideals, and can be especially dissatisfied when you feel that someone else is unhappy with you. When external standards become too important, even your own faith in your inner beauty and personal worth begins to wane. Once you've fallen into the trap of trying to please, you can lose sense of yourself. But you have a gift: you are capable of regaining your balance and getting everything back into perspective. And you are quite capable of standing your own ground and waging battles when necessary. You may yearn for a partner, someone with whom you can share your life. Feeling like Cinderella, hoping that somewhere there is your dream lover and partner, you may dream that somehow you will be beautiful and lovely enough to have him: the perfect man who will respect your needs and honor your individuality. But fairy tales can be the source of your greatest pain. There is nothing wrong with wanting a partner, but expecting him to be your salvation can set you up for disappointment! You have the power to change the outcome by changing your focus. Creating your inner partner can be your greatest challenge, and it is not until you have accomplished that aim that you will feel like a whole woman. Deep within your soul, you know that you will never have the perfect partner until you accept yourself as perfect. Oh, yes, that includes embracing your shortcomings, and it includes accepting the human foibles of everyone else you love. Then, and only then, will the beauty, peace and harmony you hope to find in the world shine through you. The Universe cannot help but reflect it back to you. With your Moon in a supportive trine aspect to your Sun, you may be quite capable of integrating the masculine and feminine elements of your psyche. This indicates that your experience of relationships between men and women has not been especially difficult. In fact, you may have a strong connection to both your mother and father. Your experience of life as a woman is not likely to seem especially limited, since you may be quite comfortable dealing with the world on your own terms without feeling that you have to be in conflict on gender issues. Self-respect and sincerity radiate through your personality, and men and women alike may respond to your requests or leadership. But you may not feel particularly motivated to achieve high levels of success, since it might seem easier to take the easier road. This is fine as long as you're happy with your life. But if you feel you want or need more, you may simply need to get moving and set your sights on options which will allow continual growth on every level. With your Moon in supportive trine aspect to Mercury in your chart, you are an exceptionally perceptive woman. Your desire to learn, communicate and accumulate knowledge are ever-present, helping you maintain an open mind and youthful spirit. Communicating your thoughts and feelings is easy, and your sincerity and sympathetic nature encourage others to be open with you, too. Whether you choose to pursue a career path or if you're focusing on family concerns, your problem-solving abilities always work to your advantage. Part of your strength arises from the fact that you may be able to trust your "sense" of things as much as you trust the data about them. When you say that you have a "feeling" about something, it is unlikely that anyone will accuse you of being silly, since your sensibilities are usually right on the mark! Through the flowing energy between your Moon and Neptune in sextile aspect to one another, your sensitivity and imagination are strengthened. Your compassion extends to all forms of life, and you may display a profound reverence for life. Your spirituality is an integral part of your life, and you may need time each day to reach within and connect with your deeper essence. You can be quite sensitive to the feelings of those you love and may respond before they even have a chance to verbalize their needs. As a mother, your connection to your children can be quite profound, and you can be a powerful force in helping them discover their own creativity. Others may rely on you to provide help and support when they are in need, and you are usually happy to accommodate them. Getting involved in your community may seem quite natural for you, and the spiritual support you feel when participating in a project which positively alters the quality of life is wonderful fuel for your soul. If you take everyone at face value, you can be victimized, since unscrupulous individuals are likely to recognize your vulnerability. Even in legitimate circumstances you may end up giving more than your fair share simply because you have difficulty walking away when someone is in need of help. With your Moon conjunct Pluto in your chart your emotional intensity is difficult to miss. You can be quite compulsive, and when you are in a "groove" may find it difficult to get out. Men may be especially intimidated by your sensuality, and if you have control issues, you may even project an aura of power which can overwhelm any man who gets close to you (at least occasionally). You may also be somewhat intimidating to other women, especially if you harbor a mistrust of women. The connection you feel with your mother may be especially strong, and it is quite possible that you felt inundated by her emotional needs in a very powerful way when you were younger. If your mom had difficulty handling her own emotions, you may have some leftover resentment toward her which needs to be released in order to heal that relationship. Conscious awareness of this aspect of your part can make a big difference in the way you relate to others, and if you sense intimidation or blocking, you can back away a little to help diminish the intensity of your own energy - if you really want to let someone into your inner sanctum. Your Moon is in the Disseminating Moon Phase of the Lunation Cycle. The idea behind this lunar phase is that of broadcasting seeds, and although there is a masculine quality implied, this phase is definitely one which requires yin, or feminine, levels of continuity. You may feel driven to teach others, to share what you know, and are quite comfortable in the role of mentor. In fact, your mentoring flows so naturally that others may not realize that you're passing on to them a truly powerful depth of knowledge and understanding. Your own understanding of yourself and life experience can be enhanced when you open yourself and release your power, creativity and understanding into the world. The archetypal quality associated with this moon phase is that of "The Companion," the essence of equality, trust and sharing. It is crucial that you maintain a strong connection with the core of your being, so that you remain aware and awake, instead of allowing your own direction to be shaped by beliefs, ideals or attitudes which seem more powerful than your personal focus. Instead of being driven by these beliefs and ideals, you grow more fully into yourself when you add your ingredients to the soup and alter the outcome. Your crusade can be quite exciting. Through the energy of Venus you express your feminine wiles, and also locate the part of yourself that needs to be emotionally expressive. Your sense of inner beauty and feelings of personal worth are also functions of Venus. Venusian energy is part of your connection to other women, and the placement of Venus in your chart can tell you a lot about your openness and acceptance of your own femininity. Although your Moon may indicate your basic emotional nature, the manner by which you express your feelings is frequently through Venusian energy. Through the energy of Venus in Capricorn you may be somewhat reticent about expressing your feelings, and may shy away from appearing vulnerable, but you do have a strong sense of the feminine element of yourself. This restraint may be lodged in what is "proper" and "acceptable," and getting away from stereotypes and into your real preferences can be a slow process. Once you find your own style of expression you'll feel much more confident in your self-worth and comfortable with your image as a woman. When you accept yourself as you are, your beauty radiates throughout your being, and others may find it easier to experience the profound nature of your love. When you're in natural surroundings, your best attributes may shine through. Muted earth colors may have a soothing effect on your psyche, and are likely to compliment your appearance (but you may also look great in black!). You appreciate people and things that are tried and true, and may not be entirely confident about your softer side until you know its strength. The last thing you want is to appear helpless or needy. Although you may sometimes dream of what it would be like to have someone take care of you, you're quite unlikely to allow it! When you're in a committed relationship, the mutual support and care which can develop can be truly sweet. There are no major aspects to Venus in your chart. To a large extent, this indicates that the energy of Venus is empowered, because it operates without undue influence from others energies in your chart. You may find it easier to develop a strong sense of self worth, but only if you are clear about your true values. Feeling loved is very important; the way you go about it centers in your ability to confirm that you deserve the love you need! The qualities of this energy may be an outstanding force in your life, and this is the energy which people frequently associate with your identity. Although the planets Neptune and Pluto move very slowly and are generational in nature, they do have an influence upon your psyche. These energies define much about the collective experience which shapes your inner self. You're experiencing Neptunian energy when you're in the midst of reverie, when you're deep in dreams and when you're feeling compassionate. Neptune drives your imagination, the realm of illusion and your psychic sensibilities. Because Neptune is difficult to grasp on a physical level, there is a lot about this energy that can be problematic, and when you are caught in the negative grasp of Neptune, you can give in to addictive behaviors, escapism and deception manifesting. But you do have a way of channeling this energy. It is through Neptune that you find the heart of compassionate love and understanding. This is the doorway to your inner self. With Neptune in Sagittarius, you are part of the generation of women born from 1970 to 1984 who are just coming into your maturity. Your influence in the realms of education, government and politics will be immense, and as an individual member of this generation, it is imperative that you discover and employ the things you are learning about truth. You have been born at a time when media has had a profound influence upon society, and you will find ways to use the technologies which are developing to shape the lives of people on the earth. You may grapple with the differences between "truth" and "facts" and can either fall victim to false belief systems or create better ones. Women of your generation may rise above the limitations of their mothers and grandmothers because of their educational opportunities, but also because you and they will not accept the same limitations. Pluto represents the primordial essence. It is from this level that all transformation occurs: birth, death, illness and healing. It is also here that the powerful kundalini force continually regenerates itself. This is the space of all creation and all power. It is the space of origin: the Great Mother. You are part of a generation of women born from 1972 through 1984 who have Pluto in Libra and are challenged to break down the barriers within society which inhibit growth and free expression of the human spirit. You may also find that you must tear down old structures which have determined the nature of human relationships in order to heal some of the problems existing among human beings. This can reach from marriage contracts to international relations between governments. Owning Your Inner Masculine Self For centuries, women were not allowed to assert themselves in the world, and carefully learned the role of supporter of their "men." Those who failed to respond in this manner were frequently shunned or punished, although there have always been women who defied convention! During this century particularly, women have broken out of their strictly "conventional" roles, and have been making their way in the world. Because of this, women have been successful at fulfilling more of their needs, and owning their own power more readily. As a result, a woman's relationship with the men in her life has also changed. Despite women's collective knowledge about the need to be whole persons, it is still sometimes easier to allow men (fathers, brothers, lovers and husbands) to "own" certain qualities. (They, in turn, prefer that women own certain qualities - like emotions!) But to become truly whole and functional, it is necessary to find and incorporate your inner masculine self into your sense of wholeness, instead of projecting that part of yourself onto others (most usually men) in your life. Through the process of becoming at home with your ego, you gain a true sense of personal strength and power. To own this power, you must learn to acknowledge that it is okay to be recognized for who and what you are. Your Sun energy is the primary factor in the expression of ego needs. As a young girl, you may have seen your father through the filter of your Sun. His power of getting out into the world, and the manner by which he did it, have shaped your own sense of personal identity. And today, the Sun in your chart may symbolize significant men. But this energy is, in itself, the core of your spirit. The most friendly path toward developing and expressing your willpower and personal drive may be that of education. As an Aquarian Woman, you appreciate a well-developed mentality, and may feel most confident when you are comfortable in your knowledge about a subject or situation. However, you may have felt as a young girl that the people who knew the most were men, and you certainly may not have questioned whether or not a man had the right to be different. Although you may have felt the impulse to be different, you've never been entirely comfortable with the idea of alienating yourself from the society of which you are a part. And as you've developed your own individual identity, you may have sensed that becoming who you are might not exactly fit the model your father had in mind for you. If you're owning your personal power, you're confident about expressing your uniqueness and meeting the world on your own terms. If you've not yet embraced this part of yourself, you may by trying to accomplish it through projecting these qualities upon your husband or partner. Let him be the genius in the family! Your own genius may not fully emerge until you've consciously determined that you, too, deserve to be seen for who you really are. Adding emphasis to your self-expression is your need to be recognized as a thoughtful or intelligent woman which is emphasized through the conjunction of your Sun and Mercury. The value you place upon learning, knowledge or information can be rather intense. You may also be under the impression that if you're smart enough, you'll get what you want from life. That may be true, but there are many levels of intelligence. One of those levels involves knowing when to stop talking and start listening, so remember that if you feel that you're not really being heard. With your Sun in semisquare aspect to Mars, you can be strongly aggressive at the wrong times. If you've not accomplished integrating your own needs to take charge of your life, you may also attract men who are overly belligerent, strong-willed or too controlling. It's important that you learn how to handle anger, whether it's your own or somebody else's. Finding healthy ways to express your personal assertiveness can open a lot of doors, but there will be times that you seem to break down a few doors just because there seems to be no other choice! Knowing that you can't always control or change the actions of others will also help you determine when you need to step out of the way of another person's anger or aggression. Sometimes the winning posture is stepping aside with dignity. Even when you are in a circumstance when you need to take charge or assert yourself, your gentility and compassion radiate through your actions and self-expression. Through the influence of your Sun in sextile aspect to Neptune, you have the capacity to accept yourself and others, and may be very open in your expression of faith in the principle of universal love. Embracing the masculine element of your psyche may be as simple as riding a bike - you just do it. Any other conflicts that you may have within yourself in this regard can be easily resolved through making an effort to integrate your spiritual and physical needs. You may over-idealize just a bit, so do remember that blind trust can be a problem. Although you may be fascinated by powerful and influential men, you know that you also possess a strength of your own. You have the ability to use your influence to create healing and renewal through the flowing energy of your Sun in trine aspect to Pluto. Regardless of your beginnings or of your current situation, you are capable of initiating and accomplishing great change when necessary. Mars energy is assertive, aggressive and combative, and can be angry. These are not "feminine" qualities. In fact, women who possess and project these qualities from within themselves often get bad names, and are called "ball-busters," or other expletives, by the men who are dealing with them. But to become fully whole, you need to accept the manner in which you can utilize your Mars energy so that you are confident and strong with it, and so you can get into the world and make things happen for yourself! You can be a bit sassy with Mars in Sagittarius and certainly have no trouble at all setting out on your adventures. Even as a little girl you were probably on the go, and now that you're a woman, you may have a restless energy which is only satisfied when you're on a quest. Your confidence and optimism may be radiant when you're in pursuit. You can become frustrated if you have to stay in one place too long. When you want to assert yourself or pursue your desires, you may run into a solid wall of fear or anxiety. With Mars in opposition to Saturn, you continually face the prospect of what could go wrong, how you could make mistakes, or why you cannot do something. Some of this is early conditioning, and you may honestly believe that because you are a woman, you cannot do what you want with your life. If you have physical limitations, you may be caught in the trap of using them as an excuse instead of finding a way beyond them. Your inner drive is very strong, and you have the capability to move beyond these limitations by getting in touch with your fears and standing up to those who would hold you back. Try taking small steps at first, just to get used to forward motion. Before you know it, you'll be sprinting across the finish line with a new record! Developing Your Mind Education and learning are lifelong processes. Your approach to developing your intellect is multifaceted, but there are special indicators in your astrological chart which help you understand the best ways to develop your mentality. Improving and strengthening communication skills is also part of developing your mind, since connecting to others is certainly improved if you can effectively illustrate your point of view! Although the energy of Mercury is traditionally considered to be the main indicator of your mentality, there are also other qualities which are part of your mental and intellectual self. First, let's look at Mercury, which is the energy through which you link your thoughts and ideas with others. Although you have a very active and curious mind, with Mercury in Aquarius you may be most interested in learning about things which are at the leading edge. Your fascination with technology and inventive mind may lead you into areas which are off the beaten path. You're also in touch with social issues, and may have a desire to understand human nature and society which takes you into some very interesting fields of study. You definitely prefer to learn at your own pace and may balk at learning about things which are not particularly interesting to you. As a little girl, you may have responded to your parents and teachers by saying, "I know," a lot, and that reflex remains strong. Intuitively, you do know about everything. But in the practical sense, you may not yet have had the time or opportunity to experience the development of that knowledge! By listening to your intuitive voice and blending the insights you experience through your intuitive awareness with practical experience, your intellectual development can be unparalleled. You can be quite abrupt with Mercury in semi-square aspect to Mars. When you're eager to say something, you may just blurt it out without thinking. Although this can add a quality of spontaneity to your personality, sometimes you may feel that you've just put your foot in your mouth! Jumping to conclusions can also interfere with your learning process, in that you may sometimes find it difficult to complete a task or finish an assignment. Mercury's trine aspect to Pluto adds a special depth to your thinking abilities, and may stimulate a desire to look beneath the surface for answers. You may feel most comfortable working in an area which allows your to probe. Metaphysics, medicine and the healing arts can be especially appealing to your way of approaching questions. But there is also a special psychic ability associated with this energy connection, which you will learn about in the next section of your report. The energy of your Moon also has a mental component. The Moon is the realm of thought, the process of subconscious thinking, and plays a strong role in intuitive thinking. The social part of learning is important to you, and your Libra Moon may influence you to develop your social skills more fully. Your love of cultural expressions, such as the arts and literature, is quite evident and you are drawn to refined people and situations. Your learning environment is important, and you'll find that you're more open-minded and mentally focused in a beautiful or serene setting. Jupiter also plays an important role in learning, stimulating you to look ahead into the realm of possibility, beyond the horizon of the now. Through the energy of Jupiter, you share what you know with others. As a woman, you are likely to feel most at home when you use this energy to encourage and support others, but you can also apply this to yourself! Your belief that you can only count on what you have in front of you can restrict your opportunities. With Jupiter in Capricorn you may think you're a realist, although some people might call you a pessimist. The truth is probably somewhere in between the two, since you do look at life in a very practical sense, and have learned that you rarely experience change or advancement unless you work for it. But once you discover the importance of giving of yourself, sharing your talents and opening your mind to new possibilities, you may finally stumble into true abundance. You may have a tendency to overestimate your abilities or over-exaggerate what you've actually accomplished with Jupiter in semisquare to Neptune. Bringing harmony between what you dream for yourself and the actual opportunities you experience can be frustrating. However, this frustration can be diminished by developing an honest and powerful connection between your inner self and your outer life. There is a powerful difference between using visualization and action to change your life and just pretending that it is something other than it has become. The purpose of Saturn is to provide clarity, structure, form and discipline - elements which are certainly important to learning. Saturn functions primarily as your inner teacher. Mothers are the most influential Saturnian models in western society. They provide the structure, guidance and support for their children in the realms of learning, socialization or personal growth. Once you enter society as a child, teachers play the Saturnian role. But the role of mothers and teachers in relationship to Saturn is to help you define the structure upon which you will build your life. Then, you "own" your Saturn, and know how to discipline and focus your own energy. Achieving a sense of intellectual strength is important to you, with Saturn in Gemini. This influence may actually add mental stability and focus, although you may have a wide variety of interests. Your ability to adapt is one of your strengths, but you must be careful to avoid undermining the integrity of the structures you've built by failing to be attentive to your responsibilities. You may be a very good teacher, since you have an excellent understanding about the way the mind works. The areas of your chart which are connected most strongly to mental and intellectual development are the 3rd, 9th and 11th Houses. The 3rd House of your chart deals with communication and the development of concepts. Your insightful intelligence is influenced by Gemini's rulership of your 3rd House. Your multifaceted way of thinking is quite an asset when problems need to be solved or people need to be contacted. An exceptional negotiator, your ability to bring people together through opening lines of communication is one of your greatest assets. Mercury's rulership of your 3rd House adds a special ability to get along with others on an everyday basis, since reaching out and making contact is also self-confirming for you. You like to get to the point, and prefer to deal with factual evidence when making important decisions. Learning may be rather enjoyable for you, throughout your lifetime. You may be quite serious about developing your mind with Saturn in the 3rd House, although you may not like being tested. When you're prepared, you usually perform quite admirably on any type of examination, including the tests of life. You need to be attentive to a tendency toward worry and negative thinking which can sap your vitality and weaken your ability to think clearly. This influence adds a strong ability to discipline your mind, and you can certainly study when necessary. Regardless of your experiences in school, you are likely to be a lifelong student of the things you love and enjoy. Your 9th House shows your approach to higher learning, which is usually accomplished through a college or professional degree program. Subjects like philosophy, religion, political science, cultural pursuits and the like are strongly associated with this facet of your development. The influence of Sagittarius on the cusp of your 9th House stimulates a strong desire to open your mind and find the truth. Your quest may lead you to travel, study, converse, write, read and explore. Nature is fascinating to you, as is human nature. You may enjoy the experience of competition at the philosophical level: something like the Olympics is quite appealing to you, where people from all parts of the world come together to strive for excellence. Jupiter's rulership of this house stimulates a prophetic and visionary ability and encourages you to reach beyond your current limitations toward horizons which are yet undiscovered. You're excited by the experiences of travel and may have a passion for learning with Mars in the 9th House. This placement also stimulates a mental restlessness, and can indicate some difficulty focusing your mind. You need some distractions in your life but can disrupt your flow and concentration by adding too many options. Your enthusiasm and zeal for your beliefs and ideals can be quite intense, and you can be quite effective stimulating the interest of others through your own devotion and strength of your convictions. You may need to guard against a tendency toward trying to influence others to change their own ideals against their will, since you can be extremely persuasive. Through the 11th House you learn from peers, and connect with your community. The 11th House involves your special interests, too. This is very much the school of life, because this is also the area which relates to developing your goals. You're quite capable of putting a strong foundation underneath your dreams with Capricorn's influence in your 11th House. You may find it easier to accomplish your aims when you have a well-defined path, and that path can be clarified by setting goals. You need long-term and short-term goals, since you can become discouraged if you're just aiming for something that will happen many years in the future. Those short-term goals will also act as stepping stones toward the summit! Saturn's rulership of this house shows that you need clarity when working toward your aims and that you might appreciate guidance or support from a friend or mentor to help you maintain your focus. With your Sun in the 11th House, you need goals which will give you an opportunity to gain recognition. You may have interests in community affairs, politics, or professional development which can ultimately take you into positions of leadership. Your personal development and educational endeavors may include public relations, management or counseling skills, and you may find that you become a role model for others who wish to follow in your footsteps. Your ability to use your mental energy in a direct manner when working toward your goals is highly accentuated with Mercury in your 11th House. Networking with others who share your interests, making connections with people in your community, staying in touch with professional friends - all these activities are driven by the energy of Mercury in this house. Your speaking and writing ability can aid you in achieving your goals, and by developing your intellect and understanding, you can rise further, faster in your personal and professional growth. Your Special Edge It's true. Women are definitely the intuitive sex. The process of intuitive awareness may be more developed for you as a woman because you are more cyclically aware, thanks to your anatomy and hormonal changes. But there is something more. As a woman, your natural affinity with the energy of the Moon increases your receptivity, an important ingredient in opening to the intuitive process. Intuitive awareness is multifaceted. You can use it when you're dealing with emotional and psychological issues, you can apply it to your creative expression, and you can take advantage of your intuition in your work as part of your decision-making. Developing your intuitive process is like developing any other sensibility - you have to concentrate some time, effort and energy in order to finely hone this element of your psyche. Although some quality of intuition may be there innately, to make the most of it, you must learn to trust, listen and incorporate it into your life. The parts of your chart which are most strongly associated with intuitive sensibility are the water houses: the 4th House, the 8th House and the 12th House. The 4th House is connected to your soul history. It is here that you seek a sense of home, a connection to your family, and a feeling of safety and comfort. It is here that your soul remembers your past, even if your conscious mind cannot fit the pieces together. Your connection to your soul may be centered in your sense of being rooted to your family with Cancer on the cusp of your 4th House. You may feel an urge to explore family history or genealogy, and in the process, may discover some exceptional information about yourself which seems to ring a very deep chord. You have a very compelling sense of knowing when things are right, which is more like a "feeling" than a thought. With your Moon influencing this house through its connection to the sign of Cancer, your need to establish the right home environment may go deeper than just wanting to live in the right neighborhood. You need a place where you feel connected at the most profound levels. There are no planets in your 4th House indicating that you may not assert a strong level of conscious energy in building a connection to your soul. This does not mean that you cannot achieve an inner sense of recall regarding your soul's history or your deeper needs, but indicates instead that you may find the doorway through other activities or experiences beyond your connection to your family of origin or their traditions. To further understand this gateway to your soul, study the sign on the cusp of this house explained above for the influences which will help you remember your spiritual past. The 8th House brings you into your deepest emotional attachments, and is the space where you are alchemically transformed. This is the seat of your magical power: your ability to change yourself in order to become whole. Here is the heart of healing, but here you also hide your greatest vulnerabilities. Most people shy away from dealing with 8th House issues like sex, death and taxes. After all, there can be problems with any of them, and they are not easy to explore out in the open. But there is more. For your intuitive development, this area represents the part of you which holds your power, and you must learn to accept and embrace this side of yourself to feel truly satisfied with your life. With Scorpio on the cusp of your 8th House, you have experienced the effects of true regeneration of yourself. Your views of birth, death, sexuality and healing may be quite matter of fact - that's just the way things are. And although you can be quite passionate, you may be capable of working with the processes of change which would redirect the focus of your passion. You may have a strong flow of energy which can aid your own healing. You can also be an effective healing channel for others. Additionally, you may be quite sensitive to the undercurrents of your relationships, although you may not like having the deal with them directly. The influence of Pluto as the ruler of this house strengthens your ability to welcome the inevitable changes and to use them as an empowering opportunity. But if you're too intent upon trying to direct the outcome as you would have it, you may be waging war on yourself. Your psychic impressions can be quite powerful with Neptune in your 8th House. Your sensitivity can be quite strong in matters which involve health or death, but you may also be aware of the potential for destructive or transformational changes in your environment. If undeveloped, you may just "sense" that things are happening, or your visions may come through your dreams. If you wish to further develop this sensibility, it is important to learn how to create a strong filter so that you can become a better "viewer" instead of feeling these things on a personal emotional level. The 12th House is the space of your dreams. Here, you surrender your conscious self and float into the beyond. This is also the place in your psyche which contains your past, and where you are one with all humanity. Your superconscious self rests in this part of your psyche: the part of yourself that transcends your everyday reality. The influence of Aquarius on your 12th House stimulates a powerful urge to break free of the bonds of the physical plane. Your urge to return to the source can prompt you to develop your creative or artistic sensibilities and to employ your ingenuity in freeing your inner self. You may be tempted to escape through negative means, and can develop addictions or become neurotically driven to insulate yourself from the pressures of life. Your true yearnings are connected to your awareness that there is a reality beyond the physical plane, but you still have to cope with being here in order to accomplish the quest of your soul! Uranus rules this house, indicating that you may follow a rather unique path toward awareness and awakening. But that's okay, as long as you reach the light you're seeking. Since you do not have any planets in your 12th House you may not feel a strong urge to probe into your dreams, and you may not feel extremely tied to your past. However, to fully understand the nature of this house study the meaning of the sign on the cusp, explained above, and look to the planet associated with that sign. The energy of your Moon plays an important role in your intuitive development. Since your Moon is related to your subconscious mind, it should not surprise you that this is the part of you that contains all knowledge about yourself and your life. Occasionally it's a good idea to purge from your psyche the things you no longer need - much like an internal house cleaning. Your hormonal cycles provide an excellent opportunity to do just that, and by using this natural rhythm to release, you can feel much more open to clearer transmission of intuitive thinking! Through your Libra Moon, you may discover that your intuition works to your greatest advantage when you're dealing with people. This can be especially true if you're involved in counseling or human relations, since you may be able to use your sensibilities to help you understand the larger picture of what's happening. You can also be quite artistic and have a marvelous intuitive sense of color, style and design. You may be one of those women who knows how to fit into almost any situation, and part of that is because you can sense the most advantageous times to talk, listen or walk away! There are other points related to the Moon which you'll find in your chart. They are called the Moon's Nodes, and are not planets, but points in space. The influence of the Moon's Nodes is felt on an inner level. From the South Node, you learn about your past and the natural inclinations which may influence many of your subconscious choices. In some ways, the South Node suggests old habits. The North Node of the Moon suggests a spiritual and emotional challenge, and represents the directions you may feel compelled to follow in your evolutionary path. Challenged with the task of learning to carry your responsibilities in a mature manner, you are learning the importance of sustained effort with your North Node in Capricorn. You may also be fascinated by the processes of aging and the wisdom which requires time to develop, although you may struggle against them to some extent. Becoming involved in activities which allow you to be responsible and positively ambitions, you may discover that you really enjoy reaching the heights of achievement. The influence of your Cancer South Node tempts you to be overly sensitive to feeling of rejection or abandonment, instead of learning to stand on your own. The confidence and judgment you develop will not only resolve some of your fears, but may give you the energy you need to become a trustworthy guide of generations who will follow in your footsteps. Uranian intuition is the flash of insight. Sometimes that flash is so brilliant that you change your entire life to follow it's glow. This is also the part of you which defies restraint, and certainly your intuitive mind can celebrate that possibility! Your originality and ingenuity can be seen in the way you deal with people in a social situations. With Uranus in your 7th House, you can be quite insightful regarding your social relationships, and may attract people from all walks of life into your sphere of influence. If your actions or attitudes are viewed as somewhat bohemian by more traditional thinkers, it probably doesn't bother you, since what is most important to you is your freedom to express yourself freely and fully. Neptune's energy takes you into the world of the etheric - the place beyond the physical which is filled with mystical wonder. You surrender to this part of yourself when you meditate, when you give in to your creative muse, and when you give of yourself to others. In developing your intuitive and psychic sensibilities, Neptune provides a primary ingredient: letting go. Through this energy you surrender yourself to the greater truth. But be careful: you can also surrender your will to the power of deception and abuse through another of Neptune's doorways! The influence of Neptune in your 8th House has been explored earlier in this section of your report. Pluto's insight is on the deeper psychic level. Through Plutonian energy you can read between the lines. You see the twitch of an eye that tells the truth, you read the movement of hands, the tone of voice that betrays what words fail to say. Developing your Plutonian energy requires that you reach into the very depths of yourself and become familiar with your entire being. Yes, that includes your shadow self, your darker side - and it also encompasses your passion, your strength of survival and your ability to heal. You need to strengthen your awareness of your physical body with Pluto in your 6th House in order to avoid making choices which can be physically destructive or harmful. Repressing your emotions or ignoring problems does not cure them. You may also have special healing gifts which can help others experience positive transformation, and may feel that it is important to work in a profession which allows you to do so. Nurturing and Creating a Home Nurturing. Mothering. These experiences are associated with womanliness, but are not the sole definers of your womanhood. Although women are the only ones who can become mothers, it is not necessary to be a mother to become an exceptional nurturer! Nurturing is a natural expression for women - but the manner in which it is done is very individualized. Whether with children, lovers, partners, friends - or even with your own parents - you have ample opportunities to nurture others. The person who needs your nurturing most, however, is YOU. Although caring for others can fill a special place in your soul, the way you care for yourself is especially important. You may derive nourishment from developing your talents and skills, or through your work. Study or travel can be nourishing. And something as simple as a long soak in the tub can refill your spirit. Part of nourishing yourself is physical, part emotional and part is definitely environmental: what you create in a home. In exploring these factors together, you can begin to see the link between these different levels of personal fulfillment. Yet another facet of your Moon beyond what you've already explored, is what your Moon shows about your deepest needs. You can only feel whole when these needs are answered and fulfilled. Although it is tempting to look outside, your wisdom tells you that a great part of the responsibility for nourishment comes from within yourself. You may adore being pampered. The energy behind your Libra Moon may keep you so involved doing things with others to help them stay happy that you don't always do things which fill your own soul. This is especially true if you have children, since you're likely to do whatever you can to make sure that they have a chance for dancing lessons, school functions, music lessons, sports activities, the best birthday parties, or anything they need to develop their social skills and have a full life. If you're married, you may also do a lot to support your husband's needs. You work, too? Well, then you need lots of time to indulge your every whim! When you stop to think about it, you may wonder what you really do need for yourself. Start by concentrating on your need for inner harmony, and allow a little time each day for peaceful contemplation. You also need to let your hair down sometimes. If that means popping your favorite CD into the stereo and dancing around the room, then go for it! Or take the time to have lunch with an old friend, make a phone call to your college roommate, or go to a movie with your sweetie. Make it a point to regularly visit your beautician and be pampered a little in addition to having your hair done. Find your favorite spot and read a steamy romance novel. Attend a concert or play or go to an art gallery just to be enthralled with the beauty. Filling your soul in these ways fills your heart with joy and adds sparkle to your smile. Saturn also plays a positive role in nurturance. Despite the bad rap Saturn sometimes receives, this energy is necessary to your stability and growth. Through Saturn, you learn to take responsibility for yourself and your actions. Saturn also seems to be the repository of your fears, and it's important to understand and deal with these emotions in order to be whole. Trying to repress such feelings blocks your ability to feel the positive, supportive energy that life has to offer. In many respects, the energy of Saturn is played out in your life by your experience with authority figures. Your mother and father, extended family and teachers were your primary Saturnian influences when you were a young girl, and their direction and guidance still whisper in the way you approach establishing your personal security. As an adult woman, you express Saturn through the manner in which you take responsibility for yourself and your needs for stability and security. You show your protection and care for others by sharing your thoughts and ideas. If it makes sense, you may be interested in trying it. With Saturn in Gemini you put a great stock in logic and common sense. But watch out for distractions. You may be going along right on track when suddenly, there's an opportunity to try doing it another way. Take your work, for example. If you're bored with it, then you may have little energy left to put into it. You're best suited to situations which involve fluctuations and you'll enjoy stimulating mental challenges in your career. The same may be true of your commitments in relationships, too, so those old "traditional" roles of wife and mother may not be your cup of tea. You'll have to reach a different type of agreement. Your 4th House illuminates what you need in a home environment, where you will feel most comfortable and how you like to live. It is here that you create a feeling of safety, where you can let your hair down and be yourself. The qualities of Cancer radiate through your 4th House, adding a need for comfort, warmth and coziness in your home space. You may love being surrounded by things which have sentimental value and may have an affinity for antiques or vintage furniture. Your kitchen needs to be state of the art, since you may enjoy fine cuisine and will appreciate an excellent place to create it. Hosting family gatherings and providing a safe place for those you love adds special memories and a wonderful at home quality to your personal environment. A garden can be both beautiful and practical for you, since tending to things that are growing suits many of your needs. The influence of the energy of the Moon, which rules this house, brings a feeling of nurturance to this space which is the natural place to experience caring and comfort. Just because you don't have planets in your 4th House don't think that you will not have a home! The sign on the cusp of this house, explained above, gives you clear information about your approach to building your nest, and the planet associated with that sign indicates the energy you use to accomplish that task. Meeting the World on Your Terms Career and financial arenas were for many years primarily part of the "man's world." Women stayed at home, cared for children, and took care of the social needs of the family. Now that so many women are in the work place, and with the advent of more open relationships where both partners are likely to share paying bills and making financial decisions, the world is changing. You can define your identity in the world in many ways today, including developing a career. Meeting the world on your own terms involves uncovering the manner in which you might shine most effectively and the way you use your resources, and creating a pathway which allows you to realize your goals. The Midheaven, which is usually near the top of your astrological chart, is signified by an astrological sign. This point in your chart represents your vocation, your calling in life, and the sign at the Midheaven gives you several clues about your path in the outside world. Just as importantly, the Midheaven signifies your blossoming into wholeness and the manner by which you might best accomplish this experience. Your 10th House also provides information about your career path. You may have very strong personal ambitions with Capricorn on your Midheaven. Your determination can be one of your greatest assets on your path to success. If you are not pursuing a career path, you still have ambitions, and these may be in the form of family position and influence or through the roles you take in your community. You're not a woman who is waiting for life to pass you by: you like having a few challenges and prefer to have a focus and life direction. Your life path may seem to be filled with struggle or conflict, although you may actually be responsible for creating some of those struggles. You're actually proving yourself, and life is your proving ground! In career endeavors, you'll be most comfortable with positions which garner respect, and may aim for professional success instead of just working for a living. In the field of education, you may be either teacher or administrator, and in business, you're quite the executive. You prefer to be in charge, and if you're working in business, government or industry, will probably aim for the top, or for those positions which allow you to be in control. Responsibility and control are key influences in your ability to achieve a true sense of fulfillment. The manner in which you do this is determined by the way you use the energy of Saturn, which is tied to your Midheaven. With Saturn in Gemini you may become an exceptional teacher, since your mental discipline and ability to build a bridge to understanding can be easily developed. You may also be drawn to the communication industries, including (but not limited to) writing, publishing, broadcasting or transportation. Your mental attitudes have a lot to do with your sense of personal fulfillment. The process of work itself is usually seen through the 6th House in your chart. Through this facet of yourself, you express your approach and attitudes about working, and your ability to cooperate with others is also indicated here. This house is related to your physical health, and it's no surprise that you might hear the complaint (or feel it yourself), "I'm sick of my job." Instead of feeling thrown off balance by the tasks required to get through life, there are ways to use this part of your time and energy to strengthen your life. You put your heart into your work with Leo ruling your 6th House. Because your performance on the job is important to you, you need to focus on jobs which are especially meaningful and where you feel you can make a difference. Your idealism and loyalty show in your connections to those with whom you work, and you may be a strong leader, even though your manner may be somewhat reserved. With the energy of your Sun playing such a powerful role in this area, you may find that you identify strongly with your job. Finding an occupation in which you have pride will not only feel better, but will also assure that you'll perform at your peak capacity. The energy of your Moon in the 6th House brings your nurturant abilities into the field of work and service. Those area traditionally associated with nurturing, like the restaurant or grocery business, can be excellent options. You may also be drawn to work as a counselor, social worker, nurse or in fields such as child care, elementary school education or domestic service. Learning how to keep your emotional boundaries concerning your job is important. If you're too emotionally sensitive to those in your care on the job, and don't know how to draw the line, you can compromise the quality of your work. You might bring your problems home, which is okay if you have a positive way to release them. If you're projecting your worries, concerns or difficulties on the job into your personal life, you can create a new set of complications. However, you must always be honest with yourself about your feelings concerning your work - even those everyday chores. Your emotions have a powerful impact upon your health, which, in turn, impacts your ability to perform your job to the best of your ability. With Pluto's energy focused in your 6th House, your work can be a phenomenal source for regeneration. You may be drawn into jobs in the health care fields, including mental health, which will allow you to experience the power of healing more directly. You may also be interested in employing your restorational energies in environmental areas or with animals, or you may be quite adept at refurbishing historic homes, monuments or furniture. Your work needs to provide an outlet for you to bring about change, rehabilitation and revitalization, and as long as that's happening, you'll be content. If you feel stagnant, abused, or resentful, then your work can be a source of great agony. As a woman, you are innately creative. Although you may not consider yourself an artist, your creative spirit and drive are the mechanisms through which you shape your own life. Creative self-expression is seen strongly in the 5th House of your chart, and by incorporating these elements into your career, you will gain greater satisfaction from your work. If you have the time to concentrate on more recreational forms of creativity, this is the part of your chart which indicates what brings you pleasure. Life itself can certainly be a pleasurable experience - all the time, not just on holidays! Cancer's influence on your 5th House adds a love of playful and creative outlets which stimulate your emotions and fill your soul. You may have a special affinity for music and dancing, and may relish the idea of surrendering to a warm embrace dancing into the long hours of a romantic evening. You may also enjoy cooking, gardening and putting some of your creative energy into building your nest. Spending time with your family may be the source of great pleasure, and you will always feel good about giving gifts which come from your heart. That time you spend with your kids curled in your arms reading bedtime stories or singing lullabies may be your greatest inspiration. With the Moon's influence extending into your creative expression, you may also gain special enjoyment from creative expression which provides support and encouragement to others. Giving something you've made may be one of your trademarks. Just because there are no planetary energies in your 5th House, do not despair. This does not indicate that you are somehow lacking in creativity. As you see from the sign on the cusp of your 5th House, your creative inclinations are driven by particular qualities and needs. Explore the different dimensions of the planet associated with your 5th House to gain insight into your creativity. By following these you'll find that you easily unlock your creative potential. One of the most powerful creative drives in your chart is your Sun. Since this is the energy which can drive you to be noticed, learning to cultivate this aspect of yourself in a positive manner can amplify your success in life. Even though you may have found your differences from others painful when you were a young girl, you've probably discovered that it is your uniqueness which will provide the impetus to achieving true success. Your Aquarius Sun adds a drive to attain a clear perception about yourself, and your need to make a difference in the world can give you cause to aim for something out of the ordinary. Your real goal may be to transcend the bounds of mere mortality and achieve something that will open a new pathway. Although this functions primarily at a spiritual level, it does have its implications on the physical plane. In your family, you can be the one who breaks the patterns. On the job you are the one whose vision and insight inspire new direction. Your individuality is expressed through many different energies in your chart, but the energy which is most closely associated with the unique and individualistic part of yourself is Uranus. Through Uranian energy, you display your ingenuity and make the breakthroughs which allow you to move into new experiences. Uranus also prompts your rebellious nature, and the placement of this energy in your chart shows you where you are staging your own personal revolution. You have Uranus in Libra, strengthening your need to experience breakthroughs in the realm of relationships. Along with other women born from 1968 to 1975, you've witnessed major changes in personal relationships and their effects upon the whole of society. These changes have also extended into the realm of the law and politics, and are also having a profound effect upon artistic expression. Your revolution will be fought within these realms, and those with Uranus in Libra will incite the changes in the law which have a major effect upon lifestyle and relationship choices. The areas in your own life where you've broken ground in your desire to achieve an awareness of true harmony and beauty are signified by the house in which Uranus resides in your chart. The energy of Uranus in your 7th House may stimulate opportunities to work in a variety of social situations as you grow both personally and professionally. You may be involved in ground-breaking circumstances or may pioneer areas in partnership with others which develop new platforms for women, particularly in fields like law or even in the context of pure societal power. You do like your independence, and even when working with others will prefer to have ample room to do things on your own or in your unique manner. The energy of Chiron is also a powerful factor for your outreach into the world. Through Chiron, you discover both strength and vulnerability. The vulnerability represented by Chiron is, in many ways, like a doorway which allows you to penetrate a deeper level of personal mastery. This is the process of initiation not unlike that which a Shaman must endure in order to learn how to travel between the worlds. Through Chiron, you learn how to travel between the world of your inner self and the world outside to achieve a sense of true purpose and wisdom. You have Chiron in Aries, signifying a need to discover your true courage. Your life purpose is centered around your needs for pioneering into unexplored territory, whether physical or idealistic. Your life work may involve breaking ground, cutting through barriers, or blasting through outworn attitudes. Your head and heart need to be in harmony with one another if you are to succeed in achieving this purpose. With Chiron in your 1st House you need to be especially aware of the way you present yourself to the world, since your manner and attitudes can make all the difference in the opportunities you experience for growth or advancement. Self-awareness is crucial to your personal development; selfishness can be wounding. Opening Your Heart Ah, Love.... Songs, poems, novels, fairy-tales, movies all extol the power and pleasure of love - and for good reason: love is the food of life! There are many opportunities to love, in fact, a love affair with life is not a bad idea. But you also may need to "grow" love by sharing it, and therein is the seed of all relationships. The planetary energies which are most usually associated with love are Venus and Neptune. Venusian energy radiates directly from your heart, from the center of yourself, where love resides deep within. Loving is an inner experience. The more you open to the love you hold within yourself, the more it grows. Your feelings of worthiness are represented by Venus, and as you grow to understand and appreciate your own value as a woman, it becomes easier to let this love energy flow through your life. Neptunian energy is Divine compassionate love - the love which does not judge and readily forgives. Neptune is the realm of romance, mysticism and heavenly perfection. Truly transcendent Neptunian love arises when you have healthy boundaries of your own, otherwise, you can become a victim of your own illusions! Your Venus in Capricorn operates in a very cautious manner when it comes to matters of the heart. You prefer a quiet, slow and safe approach to intimacy. You need to know that love lasts through all time, although you first may have to prove to yourself that you are worthy of a timeless love. Just remember that nobody else can give you the love you need until you know how to find it within yourself, first. Although working hard or establishing financial success may add to your sense of stability, they may never be quite enough to fill your heart. Money matters are important in your relationships, and you will be happier in a relationship which provides a strong financial base. But choosing a partner simply for financial stability will rarely be completely satisfying. Once you've given your heart, you're unlikely to turn away. One thing to keep in mind: love has a direction all its own, and it sometimes just does not make sense. As you allow love to grow, develop trust in yourself and those you love, you will experience a truly worthwhile existence. Sometimes loving is a series of frustrations. The stimulus of Venus in quincunx to Saturn provides a sense of disappointments through love, especially if you've gotten into situations which were counterproductive to your growth. In essence, you're here to learn about the difference between healthy and destructive loving. Once you've gotten the feel and taste of a healthy connection, you can repeat the process. The first contact is that between your ego and your inner self in a mutually supportive link. When you remain connected to that little gyroscope in the center of your heart that sings when you're in a situation which allows love to flow, all is well. When you try to pretend that the gyroscope really does not work or that the song does not matter, then you get to feel the pain. It's like Pavlov's dog: you're training yourself to know the difference. Just remember who is running the experiment. It's not the guy you love. It's you. As one of the generation of women born with Neptune in Sagittarius, you may be intimately involved in reshaping the definition of marriage. Laws which reflect the true nature of loving and making commitments may be difficult to initiate, but are important parts of your task as a collective during this lifetime. On a personal level you may find that your primary drive in relationships involves finding a partner who shares your quest for truth and understanding. To open your heart to real compassion, you need to feel a sense of trust which originates from your common ideals and values. Once your vision is focused with that of your partner, you can create amazing changes which will form the basis of the teachings you pass on to your children and future generations. Since your Moon and Neptune are in sextile aspect, you can easily open your heart to express compassionate understanding, caring and tenderness. In any relationship these extensions of yourself can be rewarding for all concerned. You can also allow the man you love to support you emotionally, and if you feel you need a little more attention, just ask. How could he refuse? The influence of your Sun in sextile aspect to Neptune indicates that you need a relationship which embodies many qualities, ranging from physical to emotional to spiritual connections. Integrating the spiritual essence of yourself into your relationships is easy when you have a partner who respects and supports you as a whole woman. You are most drawn to a man whose spirituality is a powerful part of his life. Through the semisquare connection between Jupiter and Neptune, you may attract relationships which cause you to take a careful look at your beliefs and ideals. If you are firm in your own ideals, then the challenges will only help you confirm what you know to be true and right. If you are uncertain, the experience of relationships may offer a contrast to your early upbringing, allowing you to re-evaluate your beliefs and ideals. The semisquare aspect between Uranus and Neptune happens about once each century and influences an entire generation or collective group of individuals. In many ways you may feel that you are among the forerunners of a new set of ideals, and may have some conflict between the beliefs and ideals (or lack of them) you were taught by your parents and those you seek for yourself. The houses in your chart which amplify love relationships are the 5th, 7th, and 11th Houses. Through the 5th House, you experience giving love. It is through this facet of yourself that you have love affairs, playful and recreational relationships and where you produce the offspring of loving. The offspring can range from artistic endeavors to children. But when dealing with relationships, this is the space which is usually occupied by loving another in an intimate sense. The experience of loving and opening your heart is purely magical for you with Cancer influencing your 5th House. When you're in love, your romantic heart is alive and filled with passion and desire. You relish getting close to the man you love, and can thoroughly enjoy the physical pleasures of loving. Sometimes, though, just cuddling together is enough to warm your heart. When your heart is open and love is flowing, you show care, nurturance and tenderness as part of your love expression. You need to be needed. You must safeguard against a tendency to try to absorb your lover into your life - that can be too claustrophobic. With the Moon also influencing this house, you will show deep devotion to those you love - from children to lovers. Through this devotion, your creativity is kindled, and you may gain pure enjoyment from the experiences of making your favorite chicken soup, the best cookies ever, and those special presents for the holidays. You have no planetary energy in your 5th House. There is no need to be alarmed, because this does not indicate that you will be without love in your life. As you've seen above, you have definite inclinations in love relationships. To further understand what you need from a lover and how you can become more adept at giving love, study the planet associated with this house. The 7th House of your chart illustrates what you're seeking from a partner. More importantly, this part of your chart also tells a story about the kind of partner you really want to become. This is also the realm of social contact, and provides information about your approach to socialization. Although marriage agreements are shown through the 7th House, planets here (or a lack of planets here) do not "promise" marriage or its lack. But if your 7th House is highly activated, you may be more motivated to find a partner. With Libra's qualities projected into your 7th House, you need a truly functional partnership, where each individual is treated equally and contributes equally to the partnership. This sounds good philosophically, but is very difficult to accomplish, and you may have to take the lead to accomplish your real aims in marriage. The first part step toward a healthy partnership is mutual self-acceptance and self-awareness. With Venus' energy involved in this area, you can extend your appreciation and support to your partner most readily by sharing affection. Just expecting that your mate will automatically show affection to you will probably lead to disappointment, so remember that when you're feeling unappreciated or ignored. Relationships are definitely a two-way street for you. Your independent spirit may stir up trouble with Uranus in the 7th House. Your freedom song takes a high priority, and you have your own ideas about what a marriage should be. These ideas may run counter to societal "norms," which is okay with you, since you're a ground-breaker in this area anyway! Any vows you exchange will be unique to your situation. You need a partner who will honor your needs for autonomy, and will enjoy a relationship with a man who is comfortable with his own independence. You may attract a series of unreliable men, especially if you have not yet learned to discipline yourself when it comes to commitments. Finding that real freedom entails responsibility is one of your most challenging lessons, especially within the context of personal relationships. It is through the 11th House that you learn about unconditional relationships, and where you open to receiving love and support from others. Here you find your friends, your supportive professional allies, and your community. Through this facet of yourself you develop your special interests. And here you set your goals for the future. It's wonderful the way friends can support your aims, provide feedback when you need objectivity, and comfort you when you're facing challenges. Your approach to friendship is also seen through this part of your chart. You have Capricorn influencing your 11th House, signifying that you prefer a few solid and safe friendships. Large groups of people may make you uncomfortable. You may even have a special friend whom you've known all your life, or at least most of it. For you, the passage of time deepens your affection and appreciation for your friends. Because Saturn's energy influences this area, you may also have friends who are older. The age differences may have been more marked when you were a young girl, and as you've matured, you may have made friends with teachers and employers. It is not always easy for you to receive love, partly because you tend to be too judgmental about whether or not you deserve it. When you've developed a sense of trust and commitment, you can open your heart and allow love to flow in. Begin by making that commitment to yourself. Remind yourself that you do deserve the love you need. The Sun's influence in your 11th House draws the support of special and influential friends. You may rely upon your friends to help you achieve a truly objective perspective about yourself and your goals. You can also play a very powerful role in the lives of your good friends, who will see your light and understanding as an important part of their own success. Since you tend to identify with your friends, it's crucial to choose friends who will be a positive influence in your life and whose aims and objectives are in harmony with your higher needs. You will definitely be known by the friends and associations you maintain. Sharing understanding and speaking the same language (figuratively) is important to you with Mercury in your 11th House. Talking with your friends may be a high priority, and you can go out of your way to make yourself accessible so that this link can be maintained. Your friends also give you something to talk about, but you have to be careful to avoid excessive gossip! You may have friends in a broad age group, and will be likely to attract the friendship of young people throughout your life. You like the way young minds think, and since youthful ideas keep your own aims spinning, it's fun to spend time around these inquiring minds. Power Issues: Sex, Money and Control Personal power is an individual expression, and has different meanings for each person. As a woman in the world today, your opportunity to experience and express your personal power is largely dependent upon the manner in which you develop it. Particularly in the Western World, as times have changed and the power base has gradually evolved beyond the patriarchal control of the last centuries, women are seeking to define their place in the world: collectively and individually. Gaining influence in the world through career and financial development, you begin to understand the different levels of power. Within the family, your roles are also evolving. You are also more free to express your sexual needs and desires, and demand that you are respected as a person and not sexually abused. But everything stems from your ability to identify, embrace and assimilate the true nature of your power as an individual woman. On a personal level, you can begin to identify much about your own power by looking deeply into the meaning of your 1st House: Your Personality Self. Early in your report you read about what you project about yourself as identified by your Ascendant. Your first House further defines that projection of the Self, and is an area where you carve out much about the way you show yourself to the world on your own terms. Through your Aries Ascendant you can express a strong level of assertiveness, but unless you develop some finesse, you may appear to be more aggressive or hostile than assertive. You operate best in situations which allow you to be active, and that aggressive side of your personality usually emerges out of frustration when things are just not moving. If you are showing the abrasive side of your personality, you can elicit a hostile response from others, or may even alienate those you hope to impress. You can blaze a trail through your independent actions and attitudes and have the ability to muster amazing courage in the face of challenges. This can be very empowering, but you'll feel even more strength when you know you've gained the admiration and respect of others who appreciate the value of your efforts. Also, developing cooperation will strengthen your leadership abilities. Since you do not have planets in your 1st House your personality expression may not be overpowered by the drive of a particular energy. The qualities associated with the sign on this house cusp, explained above, since through as the primary manner in which you want to be seen by the world. Another power space on your chart is your Midheaven. This point, which is usually at the top of your chart and marks the cusp of the 10th House, is like the crown and torch of the Statue of Liberty. Here too, are the indicators of the types of people you most admire, and the clues to what you need to develop within yourself to attain unshakable self-respect. Through your Capricorn Midheaven you are drawn to power which has a strong element of structure and control. This manifests within society through government, big business, and the world of finance. But it also exists in classrooms, on farms and within families. The structures which form the basis of your own security are personal. It is crucial that your own ambitions are tailored to goals which fit you as an individual woman. Although you may have deep admiration for those who have shown success in their lives, you need that same admiration for yourself. Creating a structure in your own life which will allow you to grow and which has room for the processes of change will allow you to experience the real power which emerges when you are stabilized. Power for you will never be complete if you are simply wielding control over the lives of others. You are much more whole when you are building character. With Venus influencing your 10th House you may be fascinated with the prospect of a career in the arts. At the very least your personal artistry needs to be expressed and acknowledged through your career path. Your love of beautiful things can be incorporated into your career, as can your awareness and ability to work in fields which are of interest in women. Relationship counseling, public relations, image counseling, fashion design, the beauty industry, interior decorating - all these areas appeal to your Venusian energy. Your knack of endearing others to you and your charm and grace can be beneficial in almost any career capacity. With Jupiter in your 10th House you may feel that the sky's the limit in developing your career path. Your desire to work in fields which reflect your philosophies and higher values may stimulate a career in journalism, publishing, teaching, the law or religious pursuits. A career which involves connections to diverse cultures or which requires travel can be fascinating, and you might be a natural in diplomatic relations, politics or international business. You're a natural in sales and can promote anything that meets with your high ethical and moral standards. You may feel frustrated with your role in the world with your Moon in square aspect to your Midheaven. This is particularly true if you seem to be doing too much caretaking and accomplish little self-fulfillment. Listening to your inner needs and working to eliminate your old self-defeating subconscious messages is very important to you. If you try to ignore these subconscious motivations, you may find that you're caught up in situations which simply do not feel right. You may learn about power the hard way. With Pluto in square aspect to your Midheaven, you've probably experienced some disappointments in your lifetime which are the results of some type of abuse. Whether this abuse was physical or psychological, whether it was from the hands of someone you trusted or a system which failed you, you may feel that you can use your personal trauma as an excuse for lack of accomplishment. You may decide to set your targets on destruction, and you have the power to be quite destructive. But in the process you destroy yourself. Amazingly, you also have the capacity to use your pain to heal yourself and can experience a renewal of power which is unequaled. Then, your influence and use of power can have a very different effect: that of clearing the way for healing in the world around you. Someone once said that money makes the world go around, and from all evidence, it certainly seems to be a powerful force. Money, in fact, symbolizes power. With money, you can have what you want. With more money, you can have more of what you want. Without money, you may want what you cannot have. Your relationship with money is an extremely intimate and seductive force. The way you use your resources - money, time, energy - says a lot about how you perceive your own power and personal worth. This facet of yourself is expressed through the 2nd House of your chart. Here, you express your value systems. The important special link between finances and self-esteem cannot be understated, and is especially important for you as a woman. In order to extract the real value of your talents and services from others in the world (such as what you are paid from your job), you must first value yourself. Through the influence of Taurus on your 2nd House you recognize the importance of building a solid financial base. When your finances are in good shape, you feel more free and alive, but if you're overly concerned about financial security, you can become rather tightfisted and may have difficulty sharing your resources. Learning to trust your own ability to generate the material security you need is one of your primary lessons, and in order to accomplish this task you must begin by stabilizing your sense of self esteem. Reminding yourself that you deserve to have your needs fulfilled and that you are attracting abundance enough to share helps to build your base. With Venus ruling this house, you have the ability to attract the resources you need and feel better about yourself when you can also give your time, money and energy to those you love. Learning about money and finances may be of interest to you, and once you have a grasp of the basics, you may actually become an accomplished financial manager. Just because your 2nd House is empty do not think that you'll be without money. This can, in fact, be a strong indicator that money matters will not be a primary drive in your life. Self-esteem issues may not be extremely powerful for you either, although you can strengthen your sense of self-worth by embracing the qualities associated with the sign which is on the cusp of this house. Resources which you share with others are reflected in the 8th House of your chart. Whether you're considering joint property and finances, inheritance, insurance settlements or tax obligations, this area is not as free and easy as the 2nd House, which seems more like what you want for yourself alone. Another layer of this part of your life deals with your sexuality, and the manner in which you open intimately to others. This is a very personal space, and it is probably one of the most guarded aspects of any woman's psyche. It is here that much wounding has taken place over many centuries, and it is here that the mask of propriety has to be removed in order to openly accept and integrate that fact that you are a person who needs wholeness and healing, and who yearns to bond at the most alchemical level with life itself. Here you also find your compulsions. It's no wonder that you don't display this part of yourself to just anybody. You have to feel safe to open this facet of yourself, and you realize that this vulnerability can be used against you in power plays. But what you may not always remember is that this is also where you have the power! In true tantric traditions, it is through the vessel of a woman's sexual energy that a couple can ride the wave of sexual ecstasy. This also extends to the other power aspects of any relationship. If your transformational and magical qualities are blocked, the whole of the relationship will suffer. Scorpio's influence in your 8th House adds a need for intensity to your sexually intimate relationships. The more intense, the better. Although you may like spontaneity, you relish those private moments when all barriers drop away and you expose your soul to your partner. Even though this may be your approach, you may not always find a partner whose experience is the same as your own. So, it's a good idea to establish some sense of trust before you jump into the deep end of the pool of intimacy. You're seeking a partner whose needs and desires act as the catalyst for true alchemy when matched with your own intensity. In matters of finance, you may not be as trusting, and you also tend to attract partners who are just as protective of their own resources. Joint finances require full disclosure if they are to operate smoothly, but that does not mean that you have to give up all control. In fact, you probably will not feel good about giving away your power in this area. Before you make a marriage commitment, it is important that you talk about your ideas concerning money, and that you understand the financial situation of your partner, and vice versa. If you fail to address these matters, they can become problematic issues later on. You really do not have to sacrifice yourself in order to have the intimacy you desire, but with Neptune's energy in your 8th House, you may be tempted to give up your own desires to those of your partner. You're better off playing fantasy games, role playing, and using your sexual dramas to keep your interest in each other strong and passionate. Although the fairy tales may lead you to believe that Prince Charming will come along and wake you from your long sleep and carry you off to his castle, that is rarely the case! Your dream of an all-consuming love can work against you, since allowing your needs to be consumed by anyone can be quite dangerous. But allowing your selfish desires to drown in the sea of passion from time to time can be another story. You also need to be very careful in dealings with joint finances, because your tendency is to trust without qualification, and that can suck up your power right away. You may be very psychic about your partner and his abilities, but you still need to know what's happening with your resources! Mars energy is about getting what you want by going after it. Mars is drive. Mars is courage. Mars is desire. Mars is unabashed sexuality. Mars is the fuel for personal power. Men do Mars quite effectively, right down to fighting and war. But you also have a warrior spirit, an Amazon Self. This is your Mars. If you fail to own and utilize your own Martian force, you lose power. Your confidence and enthusiasm are your power sources with Mars in Sagittarius. When you have your aim set on something, your self-assurance helps you achieve it. Staying physically active helps you maintain your power, and you'll appreciate a man whose love of adventure and travel are equal to your own. You lose power when you feel too hemmed in, whether by the expectations of others or by situations which limit your options. But you can also undermine your own strength by running away before you've had a chance to explore the fullest possibilities of your current situation! You can be quite sensual, and may enjoy a sexual relationship which leaves ample room for playful exploration of the many frontiers you and your partner possess. Your downfall in sexual relationships arises when you jump in before you've had a chance to think about what you're doing. Learning to consider the effects of your actions will be highly empowering! You can be overly controlling with your Mars in opposition to Saturn. Not only can you hold yourself back, but you can try to inhibit the actions and energy of others. You may not necessarily look for opportunities to get in somebody's way. When you're in a negative frame of mind, feeling threatened, or insecure, you own fears can work like a wall of resistance. Watch for your first response to new situations. If you feel a big, "No" welling up inside you, stop for a moment and look at your fears. Caution is one thing. Excessive fear drains your power. You may also need to learn about the difference between directing your anger and stuffing it. When you repress angry feelings, they will ultimately come out in destructive ways and may be directed toward the wrong target! Saturn plays the role of the big controller in your life. Sometimes that control seems to come from outside. You know - all the rules and regulations, the authority figures, the intimidating people who tell you what to do - this is the Saturn of the outside world. But you have the same traffic cop in the back of your own mind, telling you what is right and wrong, chiding you when you make a mistake, holding you back when you're about to do something stupid. Saturn control can be a good thing. This is your energy for self-discipline, clarity and focus. You need Saturn. But you need Saturn in its most productive sense. You do not need the guilt, intimidation and self-limitation that keep you from having what you require from life. Through Saturn in Gemini, you experience power when you're learning and sharing what you know. Whether you're in the role of student or teacher, the growth you feel when you're enhancing your understanding provides strength, stability and confidence. Your power is diminished when you become distracted from your focus; staying on task is not always easy. After all, there are so many options out there! Your personal power can be wasted on worry and negative thinking. Once you accomplish the task of positive thinking, you have the power to create a life which is filled with opportunity and abundance. You may feel that you always seem to want the wrong things with Venus in quincunx to Saturn. This can undermine your trust in your own judgment and weakens your self worth which in turn diminishes your sense of personal power. You learn from your life experiences that sometimes what you want is not what you need, and by adjusting your wants to include things which have real and practical value, you will build a more sturdy platform. Otherwise you will continue to waste your resources, time and energy on people, situations and things which just don't meet your needs. Plutonian control is sometimes difficult to grasp, but it's definitely there. When you feel this control from outside yourself, it is undermining and extremely intimidating. The force of Pluto is buried deep within your psyche. It is unleashed and grows in a manner like the process of mitosis in a fertilized cell, which is altered, splits off, combines with other cells and ultimately becomes an organism. Through Pluto, you experience the power of life, birth, healing, and the ultimate change of death. If you are trapped in a mire of shame, guilt and self-destructiveness, you may have undergone a Plutonian transformation as a result of trauma earlier in your life. But it is this same force which plants the seeds of change that eventually can lead to the creation of a new self. Pluto's energy in your 6th House prompts you to unlock the power you have to alter and transform your own life through self-improvement. The quality of your life depends upon the way you handle experiences which may seem to be beyond your control, like your genetic heritage, or an illness, or the society within which you live. Taking care of your health through finding the root of real healing power in your life is one of the most crucial factors you must face. Completely surrendering control of your life to the will and direction of others will leave you feeling disconnected to yourself. You can find the right healers, helpers and supporters, but first you must acknowledge the part you play in these processes. Embracing Your Divine Self In western society today it's okay to admit that women are Goddesses. This, in itself, implies that the power of The Source may not be solely masculine. In essence, this power contains All That Is, but as a woman, you express it through your Goddess Self. This part of yourself is always there when you feel abandoned or alone to give you comfort. Your Goddess Self is standing firmly beside you when you face a major challenge, sharing her strength and support. Your Goddess Self opens the doors to Truth and Understanding. She is the essence of all that is Love. Look in the mirror. Stare deeply into your own eyes and you will see her reflected back at you. When you need to get in touch with your inner being, an exercise in guided imagery can help you make the transition from your everyday thinking to heightened awareness. Take a few minutes to make this journey. Before you begin, find time to be alone. Sit or lie down in a comfortable position in a place that feels safe to you. Take three deep breaths. With each breath, release the tension from your body as you exhale. As you inhale, fill yourself with energy, light and inner calm. Then, close your eyes, and take one more relaxing breath. Imagine that you are on a journey, a quest to find the most sacred source of knowledge. Your journey begins at the doors to a temple or cathedral, and you enter, hoping to find what you're looking for so you can get on with sharing what you've discovered. You are amazed when you walk inside, for there you find a long hallway, with doors leading to many different rooms. You open the first door and walk inside a room which is filled with old books, dusty from years of neglect. One book falls at your feet, and when you pick it up, a page falls out. When you look at the page, you see that it is a map of the cathedral. You leave the room, map in hand, heading toward the place marked by a symbol which looks like a pyramid with a circle in the center. To get there, you go through a doorway which opens to a flight of stairs. At the top of the stairs in another door. When you open it, you walk out onto a balcony which overlooks the city. It seems to surround the entire building, and you are amazed at the beautiful things you see. Everywhere you look, you find something fascinating, but you are most drawn to a crystal blue pillar which stands near what seems to be the center of the building. Once you reach the pillar, you see standing before you is a radiantly beautiful woman dressed in rainbow pastel colors. She gestures for you to come to her, and as you walk together, she tells you the story of a prince and princess who found true love. You wonder why she speaks in fairy tales, and, as though reading your thoughts, she says, "but this is your dream." She then looks into your eyes and tells you that you are creating your own story through your life. Reaching into her bag, she removes a small mirror and tells you to look into it. When you do, you see yourself and all the relationships you've experienced over your lifetime. Then, as you look up, she tells you to look again and see how you would like to resolve your relationships. There the mirror displays the tale of your life, and you begin to find the answers to the peace you've sought. You ask if you can see your perfect relationship in the mirror, and she smiles and says to you, "of course." But when you look, you see only your face, radiant and shining. |